Oh Skest! I wish I was there to wrap my arms around you. Or try to tell a funny joke to make you smile. I could threaten to cut someone but it doesn’t sound the same when I’m not pregnant. I love you more than I could ever express. My heart hurts for you and what you are going through.
I could make this blog a big ol sob story about how sorry I am for you. But I wouldn’t be telling you the truth. Yes, I do feel terrible for what you are going through but in my own way I am smiling. I say that because I am thinking of your future. I am thinking of all the wonderful people that love and adore you. I am thinking of those two beautiful little girls who no one else wanted to give a chance. I am thinking about all the wonderful ways that God has blessed you and will continue to bless you.
Yes, I have no idea what you are actually going through. Yes, it’s easy for me to say that you are better off. Yes, it is easier for me to see all the positive. But I’m going to keep reminding you how wonderful you really are because it’s the truth. Anyone who doesn’t see that doesn’t deserve to be in your life anyway. You need to be happy on your own and love yourself first. Everyone else who gets to be a part of that is just a bonus.
You are going to be great. One day we are going to look back at this and think “Wow God! You really had a plan didn’t you :).” Of course it doesn’t seem that way right now. I guarantee you your best life is just waiting patiently for you to find it.
Life is such a funny thing. Sometimes you win and sometimes you lose. But Em this time you aren’t the one losing anything. You have so much to gain. Just think of it as a fresh start. Say goodbye to all that baggage that has been holding you back. And don’t waste a single tear over someone who won’t cry over you.
Again I love you!! And you are such a great mother figure to A & Cass. Do them a favor and show them what a strong, independent woman you can be :)